If I were willing to just put my mind aside for a moment and let my heart spill… here’s what it would say…
You are already free. Already awake. Already completely enmeshed with the totality of who you are, and thus, with everything. It’s not like you are in some sort of ‘dormant’ state that you need to awaken from so your life can ‘really start’ …. no…. the totality of YOU is already well and alive and thriving and consciously unfolding in and as the perfect orchestration of this sublime moment. There is no need to figure anything out, or ‘realize’ to become more perfect. The stuff that you long for – the deep eternal connection, the clarity of lucid knowing, the energy of infinite creative wisdom is the stuff that you are.
Peace