So I’d like to start today’s writing with an honest account of where I’m at in this ‘awakening’ thing because I’m still new to it all – well, the truth of who I am isn’t new to any of it of course, but the shift in identity from ego to awareness is very new and still unfolding.
When I was ‘in pursuit’ of awakening, I was humbly reminded again and again that the one who ‘wants enlightenment’ is the very one who is in the way. This is a big clue for me… it is easy for me to notice this inner seeker that wants to claw or meditate or ‘come into’ awareness…. and I know instantly to not look there, for the mind will never ‘get it’, and this is SO frustrating to the mind!! So I leave the mind for a bit – it will still think and fret and do what it does, but I can also become aware of something else other than the mind…..an ocean of awareness behind it. This awareness is impossible to know or contain or categorize or pin down in any way, but it can be sensed and recognized. That’s where I’m at (and it’s only the ego that would try to determine if one is ‘awake’ or not!). I see the mind and often fall into it and follow its dreams for a while, then realize what I’m doing and my attention is back to that ocean of awareness. Even when I’m thinking, or doing tasks that range in mental complexity from taking a sip of tea to cooking three different dinners while holding two babies and singing baa baa black sheep, I still keep part of my attention on this ocean of awareness.
So why does this all matter for the planet? For many, spiritual paths are undertaken to avoid or alleviate suffering. We realize we are anxious and stressed, so we do yoga, chant a mantra or meditate to chill out a bit. We want to escape the pain of living and find a state of bliss. Truthfully, the path has been partially about that for me. But now as I become more conscious (which to me means that I don’t act on my unconscious impulses as often) I see it’s relevance to finding truly intelligent and effective solutions to the world’s problems.
Eckhart Tolle and Thich Nhat Hahn both have said that we have a responsibility to keep our internal landscapes clear. If we take action while we are internally polluted (with negativity or from the suffering inherent in blindly following false beliefs), we create more suffering in the world, even when we have the best intentions. I watched a video recently where a man was asking Thich Nhat Hahn how to deal with intense fear and anger. This man was on a committee to stop chem trails over L.A. He was fearful because the chemicals that are being emitted are poisonous to humans, so he himself as well as his family and friends and larger community are subjected to this poison, and he was angry because nobody seems to care or be doing anything about it. So he asked Thich Nhat Hahn how to go about creating change when motivated by fear and anger. Hahn’s answer was brilliant as always. He said that we must first clean up our internal landscapes. If we operate from a place of fear or anger, we will not be able to create any positive or true change. He said the man was better off to write love letters to the ones spraying than hate letters. He spoke of the power of coming to that place of peace, of love, look deeply into the illusion of the separate self, and then allow any action to be taken to arise from there.
This speaks so deeply to me. When we become aware of the awareness that we are, it changes the very way we go about ‘seeking solutions’ in the world. Now, this writing is tricky for me because I can imagine how it could easily be misunderstood, but please bear with me. So I used to spend a lot of time and energy learning the details of a wide spectrum of global environmental, social, economic and political situations. I helped start committees and I created curriculum to do my part in trying to help alleviate some of the dire situations on the planet. At the time, I thought my greatest leverage point was in my ability to pass on my passion for learning, leading and educating and trigger the same in others. It was exhilarating, It felt empowering to think I ‘knew something about things’ enough to take a stand, to write articles, do talks…. I held strong convictions about who to point my finger towards to blame for our global problems. I had students who I (still) adore who would look to me for my opinions on what is going on in the world and why…..
…..but now I see things differently. I see how the rational mind needs to orient and examine the world’s problems in terms of an ‘us and them’ as a way to set the context for finding a solution. This is how we are trained. We need to know the history, see the mechanics, divide people into the good guys and the bad guys and so on. Then we try to come up with a solution based on this context. Do you see where I’m going with this? With this method, we are completely entangled in history and unconsciously attached to layers of beliefs (that point to right and wrong, what is just or isn’t just, etc) that deeply limit the possibility of a fresh solution to arise. Now, there is nothing wrong with learning about, talking about, thinking about or ‘knowing’ history (although we must acknowledge the subjectivity, bias and distortion of our memories anyway), but if we look for our solutions there, we come back to Einstein’s quote – where the world’s problems cannot be solved at the level of consciousness at which they were created. It is so clear to me now that our conditioning makes us believe that this is a highly intelligent and keenly aware way to go about finding solutions. But now I see that any solutions gained in this way will be largely unconscious.
So to consciously solve ‘problems’ we must let go of our agendas (even momentarily) and come back to the raw and terrifying intelligence of not-knowing. This is truly the only leverage point. The present moment – (not a point in time, but the place where you become aware of your awareness) is the only place where true creative intelligence can emerge. We must come to recognize ourselves as pure conscious awareness (that has no past and no future) so that we see that we are unhitched from the past (even if we still ‘know’ about it) and we are completely free to act in a new, intelligent and conscious way.
This is why awakening is so important. We are free from the past – we are free to make new decisions every moment – but these are the decision-less decisions that arise as obvious choices when we operate from the truth of the spontaneous intelligent awareness that we are.
In truth – you are the world. You are life. You are this moment. Everything you see, feel, know -it is all you. So love love love it all. The loving conscious awareness that you are is always here. It’s the only thing that is here.
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