Awakening is not about sticking our heads in the sand

There is a misconception about spiritual awakening, or spirituality in general that I’d like to explore…..this post echoes a previous post (I guess I need to write about it again to gain clarity!)

Many people come to spirituality as another escape. As a way to feel better, to find bliss or achieve another goal – perhaps enlightenment.  This is natural, as human beings we seek refuge from our pain.  But then spirituality becomes a place to avoid reality.  Some of us use it to even avoid our own thoughts and emotions – we retreat deeply into this imaginary little cave where we convince ourselves we have found ‘nothingness’ and we stay there, determined to remain untouched – to remain separate – even from our own inner processes.  Staying in this ‘little cave’ and believing this is the way to stay true to ‘the moment’ is a stage that many of us go through – so no need to feel defeated, let’s just get clear.

Obviously this attempt at finding peace is not very useful (and kind of funny when we look at it this way, no?).  It also makes any ongoing assistance, or projects, or work in the world impossible – because we’ve pigeon-holed ourselves into thinking that any ‘effort’ is futile because it is all of the ‘ego’, which isn’t ‘real’….. oh my goodness…. the confusion……!!!   

So essentially, there is a tendency to use spirituality as another method of denial – another way to push away pain (our pain and the world’s- ultimately one in the same) and relinquish our responsibility to each other and to the planet.

So how do we respond to the planet – that could greatly benefit from our wise attention and conscious action in a way that isn’t propelled by mere conditioning, fear, hatred and despair?  Or even by hope?

We must awaken and then see.  A response from pure awareness – from truly conscious seeing seems a good way to go.  But how?

We need to first become honest with ourselves about our capacity to remain present with all of our inner processes (including all thoughts, emotions). I know you’ve heard this a million times, but truthfully, I think we often believe we are ‘being conscious and aware’ when in reality we are stuffing lots that we don’t want to deal with away, right?  (To do this, we don’t have to look for moments from the past to re-live, we must simply acknowledge and honour whatever comes up with deep attention). We can then develop the capacity to actually respond consciously (and effectively) to the reality of the moment – for real.  

The reality of a moment might include a thought or intense emotion or discussion or campaign about Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, Nigeria, Cameroon, Niger, Chad or any countless other parts of the world that are in intense conflict and pain.  As we (as individuals) continue to become more conscious, more awake, not only does a deeper wisdom become available (on how to act, or what to do), but our sense of self begins to expand into a much larger sense of Self – which ultimately includes all.  So without effort, a deeper sense of responsibility and compassion naturally arise.  Any action taken from this depth of being will have a far greater effect than action taken from reactive fear, obligation, or from ‘trying’ to be compassionate or responsible because it seems like the ‘right’ thing to do or be.

When it comes to addressing the ecological crises (and collapse) that we are facing, or resolving long-standing violent conflict, it is our mind’s tendency to strategize elaborate plans. This is natural.  This is how we’ve been taught – we are trying to do the right thing….

But this must be led by the wisdom of our Heart.

This awakened wisdom is already flowing- it is already what we are- we just don’t know it (or, we are just starting to become aware of it – this is exciting).  So becoming aware of it and living in support of it is the foundation- for everything. 

The draw to explore this deeply – and to reach out to others exploring the same is so primary to me….so fundamental…. so necessary.  This is why I’m writing.  This is why I’m Here.

From the directives of our Heart, our brilliant minds can then spontaneously be used to carry out anything that might be required in the field of action.  In this way, the solutions will be immediately orchestrated from beyond the limitations of the mind. They will be springing forth from the deepest, purest, most compassionate and most ingenious intelligence….

So please see that I’m not writing about putting our heads in the sand and shutting out the world so we can just enjoy the deep bliss of awareness. 

I’m not writing about how to bolster peace in a way that in actuality perpetuates ignorance….

I’m writing about waking up so we can exist in the awareness of who and what we are.

…. imagine…..

…..breathe…..

…..what’s Here in this moment?…….

Much love and support to you.  I’d love to hear your response to this!


What never falls asleep

It’s a blessing when I fall asleep for a moment.  In these moments, I might get cranky or irritated, or outright angry… but then it’s almost like that tension sets off a little bell, and I immediately snap back into the bigness of what’s Here.  I realize that I fell asleep, meaning I fell back into the habit of trying to be in control and create an agenda.  But this agenda is always like a transparent sheet placed over life, with a clearly marked line to follow regardless of the actual (living) terrain beneath it. When something blocks or reroutes the agenda, even for 10 minutes, frustration arises.  And then I see what I’m doing.  It is always humbling, and always illuminating.

I don’t judge my ego anymore – it isn’t the ‘bad guy’, it is just a deep pattern that I’ve been taught to reinforce all my life.  I’m grateful to it for being willing to try to take on the enormous (and impossible) task of all the things it tries to do – but it doesn’t have to do any of that.  It can just rest in joy and amazement.

I used to be terrified to surrender my agenda, I really thought it was more responsible to have a well-plotted plan (in all aspects of life, short and long-term).  But now I experience this differently – I see that this surrender is surrendering to the greatest wisdom inherent in Life and in myself.  It feels terrifying because I can’t say what that wisdom is or where it will take me – there are no footholds, not even a tiny crack.  But I know this is the only way to invite and experience the fullness of what is always Here.  It always results in a deeper, more present, infinitely more fulfilling and even a more ‘productive’ experience.

So ‘falling asleep’ just brings me back to this – again and again and again – in fact, in this regard, the more I fall asleep, the greater the joy is in returning to the luminousness of what never falls asleep – and seeing that I never left.

Peace


The sweetness of Here

What a relief to know I’m not in control!!  What a joy!  I get to just show up and marvel at it all…..what a deal!  The pressure I used to put on myself to make things happen, and to control things is gone.  Now instead of putting my attention towards the future or the past, I use it to bring myself fully into the moment.  The past and the future still exist of course, as storylines that I attend to when needed – but I’m no longer bound by them.  I now see them for what they are and can attend to them consciously.

I’m now Here.

Finally.

I never imagined the fullness of what that meant before – full, overflowing, vibrant, more than enough, surprising, clear, mysterious, fulfilling and so sweet.

That is what always awaits Here.

Peace.